The end of 9 weeks

Yesterday was my final week of LSS. After successfully going for 9 weeks without skipping a single friday, its now the end of the road.

I would like to share how I feel after the 9 weeks. I have been blessed that was given the gift of tongues during the baptism of the holy spirit and for a couple of weeks on, my spirits were high.
As warned by my facilitator of my group, its now that the journey will begin to get tougher.

Indeed that was true. For the last 3 weeks of the LSS, I have been going throught spiritual dryness. I have to say, things got worse after i found out that my situation hasn't gotten any better at work.

It takes a lot of work to be close to God. The closer you are, the mr S.A TAN will try to lure you away. With great regret, I have to say this, for the past 3 weeks, Mr. TAN has won me over.

But I hope to gain momentum and strenght again to move forward.

So pray for me.
Currently in my mind, I just feel that God has abandon me. I have having thoughts that its better not be a believer as too much obstacles are placed infront of me, which sometimes I deem, too much and I am just tired.

Its a loop that never ends, like the world goes round and round, the issues just keep coming back hitting the fence and the shit hits back right at you.